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It feels like I don’t know what I have been doing for all this while. I’ve had a few revelations like these, moments of clarity where all my built fantasies fade. I’ve spent and wasted too much energy in impression formation and I’ve grown quite tired of talking although I’m simply reiterating myself here. I hope it’s enough I hope and pray my mind stays the way it is now where everything is crystal. This is why I know right from the start I needed to get away from people and actually isolate myself from the world. Although it seems like I’ve failed miserably in doing so and I really really regret at this point for not having the guts to actually from day one work on these aspects. On the other hand all is not bleak, I’ve managed to tweak other parts of my system. It’s just for now… I know the focus has to be on myself and my reality and what I produce with these two hands and enough of all the self induced misery and incessant questioning and on it shall be from this moment with my life.