it ends

time to close this chapter and on to the next.
goodbye wordpress.

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Azumanga daoih
Appleseed deus ex machina
Black heaven
Cowboy bebop, cowboy bebop the movie
Boys be
Chobits
Chrome shell regios
Chrono crusade
Clannad
Code geass
Desert punk
Dual
Earth maiden arjuna
Excel saga
Fate stay night
Final fantasy unlimited
Final fantasy the movie
Fruit basket
Full metal panic
Full metal panic fumoffu
full metal panic the second raid
Full metal alchemist
Love hina
Fokujou seitokai
Hidamari sketch
Igpx: Immortal Grand Prix
Kanon
Kurokami
Last exile
Negima magister negi magi
Nodame cantabile
Nodame cantabile paris hen
Orphen
Ouran high [...]

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must find help.

I have to let go of all my fallacies that I’ve build and be free. Gotta cut my chains. Lord help me and grant me strength to unleash my full potential and embark on self actualization.
I need help so I turn and look to you.. no one else but you.

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I’m good at hiding at finding. I’m good at changing my personality at a pencil drop. I am actually good at such things. But I’ve never ever tried that on my work before…. self hypnosis. I shall since I’m all out of options… I feel that this is what my gut is telling me. and [...]

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shooting my own feet

I don’t know..don’t know why this self destructive behavior and why do I let it be so intrinsic. Maybe it’s because I like to watch my toes bleed. Maybe it’s the slow heal that makes me realise that there at least is something more.
I want you to not want me but I still want you. [...]

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rffb

It feels like I don’t know what I have been doing for all this while. I’ve had a few revelations like these, moments of clarity where all my built fantasies fade. I’ve spent and wasted too much energy in impression formation and I’ve grown quite tired of talking although I’m simply reiterating myself here. I [...]

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9*%

stop… movies, anime, music, anyform of media.
start… God, Body, Words.
Execute patten orange
code halcyon
confirmation id x2379delta4
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begin

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sanity lies in the middle of an oreo cookie

I know what I have to do..I have to kill my false self that I have created, the image that I project to the world. In some cosmic re-birth I have too murder myself everyday to survive. This is what happens when the web of lies has become concrete, an overgrown forest living off fertile [...]

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new year. this year I resolve to talk and think less; stop focusing on the ‘why’ but the ‘how’ and ‘what’. I really treasure this little hours and I dread the day I’ll leave this house, even as I start to fold away my memories like clothes.
I’ve to get lunch. then my notes. then oh [...]

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yearly thing

for some odd reason I’m really tired of living at least for today and though it’s the first day of the new year, I seriously can’t master the will to reflect on the past year and plan for the new year. I think white coffee at big splash is awesome…mmm white coffee. I want to [...]

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